Wednesday, July 19, 2017


My love, it's been hectic and disorienting these past couple of days. At least it's nothing major; just a bevy of small demands and costs coming at us from all angles. It's nothing we can't handle, and looking back, we've handled so much more. It's fortunate for me that our monthly anniversary happening now. it gives a little more needed perspective. I love you.

Monday, June 19, 2017


I can’t believe we have been married for 18 years today. I’ve said it before, but we have a life where our togetherness is in a blink of an eye. I can’t tell time with us, and I don’t want to remember life before this era. I can’t. I choose not to, but I keep myself in this era because it’s a better slice of my life. We are that better slice, and I hope I always make you happy. I hope I make you laugh. I hope I’m worthy of you. 

Friday, May 19, 2017

To my love, happy monthly anniversary. One more until 18 years together. I can't believe this much time has passed. It doesn't feel like time has passed, though. Everything feels like one long day, small blinks of darkness as sleep, different colors of the sky for the seasons. I don't feel older. I don't see myself as older, even though I am.

We have been married for two-fifths of my life. Longer if we think about how long we knew each other before you smiled and said yes to me and everyone in that garden. I love you. I hope I make you happy.

Wednesday, April 19, 2017


Happy monthly anniversary, my love. I hope I always make you happy and that I'm grateful you are in my life. I know I wouldn't be anywhere close to this good of a shape without you, especially this month. I'm not worthy of you, and I hope I can one day show you as much love and support as you give me.

Sunday, March 19, 2017


For my love, happy monthly anniversary. It’s been a turbulent month with my health scare. At least everything is manageable now. No need to worry about a shortened lifespan. Just medicine and change in diet. Thank you for being here for me, supporting me, loving me, and helping me come to grips with this news. Two weeks later, everything is under control, and I love you so much for-without saying a word-helping me change my life and keeping me out of fear.

Sunday, February 19, 2017


Happy monthly anniversary to my love. With a new job, things are becoming stable again. Not comfortable. I don't think I'll ever be comfortable until I get a non-contact job. But it's calm for a while. It feels better, even there's no guarantee of anything in the future. Still, it feels better, better than it was this time last year. I love you, and I hope I always make you feel loved and safe.

Thursday, January 19, 2017


Happy anniversary, my love, and I have a new job. Found out today while driving to donate old hardware. I thought I blew the interview yesterday, but I impressed the creative director so much that they skipped a step and made the offer the next day. I can do this job, and it will be an impressive one. Thank you for being supportive, and thank whomever for being only three weeks out of work.