Wednesday, December 19, 2012


Happy 13.5 years to my lovely wife. With any luck, we will be visiting Ireland six months from now. So much to plan, so many guide books to read. Not a complaint, just eager to see this slice of the world with you. I love you. Happy anniversary.

Monday, November 19, 2012


Happy monthly anniversary to my lovely wife. Things are calm now. Well, more calm. I feel like I can breathe now, and such times bring a relief. No more outside tension for a while. A happier home amid the rain and the gloom outside. Consider this my gift to you, my love.

Friday, October 19, 2012


To my love, on the monthly anniversary of our big day. Somedays I wish I was a better person, and then you tell me I am.

Somedays, I wish I could believe it for myself.

It's been a hard few weeks. Thank you for understanding.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


Happy anniversary, my love. I know things have be crazy lately, but I like to think it's worth it. The game is doing well, but I'm still ensnared on future projects, and it possesses me far more than it should. I love you, and I'm grateful you are enjoying the fruits of my labor. Maybe one day we can sit down and play it together. It's strange that I'll distract myself from work craziness to play something I made at work with you. But there are worse things in the world.

Sunday, August 19, 2012


Happy anniversary, my love. Tonight, a quiet night. "Avatar" episodes and cupcakes. Next week: the storm. The game launches, the parties are held, the fans will be frenzied. I want to enjoy this quiet moment with you before the joyous turbulence hits. Again, thank you for being there for me in the final months and weeks to launch. I couldn't have done any of this without you. I love you.

Thursday, July 19, 2012


To my love. Another month for us. Happy anniversary. I love you, and I'm grateful you are understanding while it feels like I'm being inflated with stress every minute between now and launch. Thank you for being by my side. Thank you for understanding. I'm lucky to be with you.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012


Today, 13 years ago, we were married. I love you. I hope I always make you happy. I hope I am always worthy of you. I hope I make you laugh. I hope I keep you warm in flesh and in heart. You make me want to be a better person, and through the years I have known you (18 by my count), I have stood and soared because of you.

Tonight, a dinner, a movie. You and I together, me always pushing to be better, to be the person you deserve.

I love you.

Saturday, May 19, 2012


As you sleep in our bed with our cats, I thought I would take this time to write that I love you. Thank you for being strong with me over the past couple of weeks. It strengthens me to know you'll be there. My biggest fear is that you'll leave, you'll run, you'll abandon. I love you, and I am humble and grateful you were so compassionate.

Next month, our 13th anniversary. I know you want a new couch, but there has to be something more romantic I can scheme up.

Thursday, April 19, 2012


I love you.  And I know you don't like it when I say things like this, sounding negative and such, but I wish I was a better person. I wish you never saw my stress or indecision, or worry or anger. I wish I never gave you a bad moment. I love you, and I want every moment to be happy and magical.

I love you.

Monday, March 19, 2012


To my love.

I miss you. Being down in California for week, away from you and our happy home, ebbs me in a way I try not to mention when we talk. I get glimpses of what my solitary life would be like without you. I'm encased in a studio apartment in my hotel while I'm down here for two weeks working. It feels more like a stuffy box wrapped in a simulation of comfortable living. Everything is me, and there's a void where you used to be. I never want that eroded or filled up. I want to be with you. Being alone is not the same as being lonely, but when I eventually think of you, there's a blankness, a psychic hole that sinks me into longing.

I miss you. This has been the longest time we've been appear since you traveled to Germany years ago. I felt adrift during that time then, and I recall that floating, pale sensation now, wrapping itself around my chest and throat.

Saturday. Home Saturday. Home with you and the cats. Soon, in the distance, it's coming.

I love you.

Sunday, February 19, 2012


A happy 152 months t my love, even if I'm spending more and more time in the office lately. One day this game will ship, and we can do back to that groove of normality. I love you so very much. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for being my love.

Thursday, January 19, 2012


Happy 151 months to my lovely wife, as we are currently housebound due to the constant snowfall in the Seattle area. I'm glad we are safe and warm together, and we both can laugh about cabin fever. I love you, my dear. In the next couple of weeks, we will celebrate an early Valentine's Day with applause and horses...and hopefully without snow.