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Seventeen years, my love. I thank you for your love, kindness, and support. I hope I am always worthy of you. I hope, after all these years, I make you laugh and keep your heart warm. I love you. 

203

Happy monthly anniversary, my love. Thank you for your love and support as the search for new work goes ever on. I know it's been hard, but I strangely have a good feeling something will break my way soon. Maybe it's the time spent enveloped by the recent funeral, but I can fight these spirals I can get into a little better. Whenever I'm tempted to think of myself as cursed, I can dismiss it and fight harder to see where I am now, how lucky I am, and how the world isn't over despite being out of work. It's hard, but it is survivable. I love you. Thank you for helping me see it.

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To my love on our monthly anniversary. I wish I could give you more today. Thank you for your love and kindness as I struggle to look for work. I hoped for good news today, but it wasn’t meant to be. Maybe something will open up for me at PAX East this weekend. I will miss being with you, but it’ll be only for a few days. I love you.

201

Happy monthly anniversary, my love. I feel like, based on nothing in particular, things will turn around soon. It's a little peaceful, with less tension or worry than in the past few weeks. Thank you for understanding and being supportive. I love you.

200

Happy monthly anniversary, my love. I wish I could give you something better today. So many setbacks in the past two weeks. I'm feeling lower than I have been in recent memory, but please don't think it's about you. And I don't want my identity to be about my job, but not having one creates a void inside, a lack of meaning for me, and I suppose a lack of funds for us. I just want to be good for you and us. Still, know that I love you.