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Happy anniversary, my love. Tonight, a quiet night. "Avatar" episodes and cupcakes. Next week: the storm. The game launches, the parties are held, the fans will be frenzied. I want to enjoy this quiet moment with you before the joyous turbulence hits. Again, thank you for being there for me in the final months and weeks to launch. I couldn't have done any of this without you. I love you.

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To my love. Another month for us. Happy anniversary. I love you, and I'm grateful you are understanding while it feels like I'm being inflated with stress every minute between now and launch. Thank you for being by my side. Thank you for understanding. I'm lucky to be with you.

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Today, 13 years ago, we were married. I love you. I hope I always make you happy. I hope I am always worthy of you. I hope I make you laugh. I hope I keep you warm in flesh and in heart. You make me want to be a better person, and through the years I have known you (18 by my count), I have stood and soared because of you.

Tonight, a dinner, a movie. You and I together, me always pushing to be better, to be the person you deserve.

I love you.

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As you sleep in our bed with our cats, I thought I would take this time to write that I love you. Thank you for being strong with me over the past couple of weeks. It strengthens me to know you'll be there. My biggest fear is that you'll leave, you'll run, you'll abandon. I love you, and I am humble and grateful you were so compassionate.

Next month, our 13th anniversary. I know you want a new couch, but there has to be something more romantic I can scheme up.

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I love you.  And I know you don't like it when I say things like this, sounding negative and such, but I wish I was a better person. I wish you never saw my stress or indecision, or worry or anger. I wish I never gave you a bad moment. I love you, and I want every moment to be happy and magical.

I love you.