Wednesday, August 19, 2015

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Happy anniversary to my love. I'm sorry you are under the weather. Tonight, rest. I'll pick up dinner. Okay, nachos aren't the best medicine, but then I'm not a doctor. I am the man who gets delicious food on our monthly anniversary. I love you.

Sunday, July 19, 2015

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Happy monthly anniversary, my love, on this the young side of sixteen years. I’m back from seeing Rachel and you are relaxing after painting the master bathroom. It’s too hot to do anything, so we take it lazy today. Soon your anniversary present will be done and our master bathroom will be up and running. I hope you love it, my dear.

Friday, June 19, 2015

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Happy anniversary, my love. Sixteen years. I said it out loud while waiting for a table with co-workers at lunch. It doesn't feel like sixteen years. I know time has passed, but it doesn't feel that gap the same way living sixteen years from birth to being a teenager. Our time just is, and this anniversary doesn't take into account the five years previous I came to know you. I have known you for 21 out of my 43 years. You are my life. 

And lately, I think about how I used to be. I'm not proud of how shaky I was. If there's a positive spin to my emotional growth, which is the only way I'm benchmarking our years at this point, is that I can see how far I've come. I wish I could go back and change how I was. I know I shouldn't be ashamed, but here it is. Making it better is only something I can do now. And that's my gift to you.


That, and a new master bathroom.

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

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To my love. Today we're apart, but we are still in touch. I'll see you in a couple of nights. Sleeping without you is a strange, unbalanced ritual I remember the echoes of it whenever I'm out of town on business, but the sinister distance of you or I being out of town alone is so infrequent you can't help but forget. 

Happy Anniversary, my love. I miss you. I love you.

Sunday, April 19, 2015

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A happy monthly anniversary to my love. I hear you in the next room, the computer playing Les Miz. I'm on the couch with Liam in a sunspot. All is calm, and I hope it always will be. I want to be the best for you. I love you.