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Happy monthly anniversary to my love. I love you and I thank you for being so supportive in this past month. It’s been a month of good tension and tests. Every step of the way, you’ve been there cheering on me or giving my work a sanity pass. Right now, we are waiting for news to see how much our lives will change and how we might be looking toward a new adventure, together. And for this, I'm so grateful for you and us. I love you.

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And here we are. 20 years. I’m writing this and I can’t believe it’s true. 20 years. How is it you love me still? How am I so lucky? What did I do to find you, earn your trust, and have you remain in my life? In my heart I know the answers and it makes me more breathless and in awe.

I see my flaws every day, and I assume other people can see them as well. I assume that’s all they see. But you see them and embrace me as a whole. You see beyond to a place I want to get to one day. You’re there waiting for me, today, tomorrow, in the haze of the future. 

I love you for it. I love you that you are here and there. It’s what love is, a promise based on potential and trust. It’s the same today as it was 20 years ago as of they were both the same point in time, looping back on itself until today was pre-ordained because it took place 20 years ago already.

I love you. I love us. And I strive to be that person you see me as now and then, when the gulf of time was seemingly collapsed by two words said at a rose arch two decades back on a Saturday in the month of June.

I strive to be always worthy of you. It’s my constant gift to you, even when I have nothing else to offer. I love you. 

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I love you, my darling wife. We are on the verge of our 20th anniversary and I’m still arranging plans. Hopefully everything can come together once I get the job front straightened out. I believe the 20th should have something special for it, but I know you are content with something low key. I just want you to know that I love you and I have a bad tendency to go big because… well, it’s expected to do something massive for such a special occasion. I feel like I have to go big or I’ll be taking you for granted and I never want to slip away down that path. 

But we will think of something. We with make our own way. We will celebrate. We will craft our own something special. I know it.

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To my love, I come here again to remember our monthly anniversary. Thank you for being by me when I falter. It’s been a hard month for me. I know it’ll get better, I know you tell me that it’ll get better but my head will wander into that dark forest and tell me that it never will. Thank you for being strong and making sure I don’t go too deep into that forest. I love you.

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Happy monthly anniversary, my love. Thank you for your strength, your love, and your patience as I continue my look for work in my  first month of employment in… almost a year and a half. I know others are having a worse time, especially with the wave of layoffs in the gaming sphere. I know I’ll land somewhere, but in certain moments, I panic. I think I won’t. I think I’ll never be in a stable job. I think I let you down. You never think that, and for that, I’m grateful and I remember that you believe in me. It gives me pause, especially when I don’t believe in myself. I love you.